i keep asking that does i love me as much as he should have receive?
or i keep asking myself that do i love him??
i can definitely tell that i love him very much
the reason is that i am scared of losing him
when he leaves me with out a reason and there is something
when he leaves me with out a reason and there is something
that makes me feel really wrong i automatically feel really bad, hurt
and my heart feels like being in an attack
its really strange that i would feel this
dont have a reason why this kind of feeling happen to me
so many times i tell myself not to think crazy things like
will he leave me one day ?
or will i not love him ?
will i meet him or will i go back to meet him ?
how much longer must i wait ?
i cant handle this kind of ' feel so close but yet so far' feeling
i felt that i will go crazy this summer
just wanting to meet my lover
but sometimes i felt like im scared of meeting my lover
since i have not met him before
sometimes i think of what i gonna wear and what i gonna tell him
that make me happy
but make me scared is that i dun know
how he is in person and i have not met a guy on a not formal occasions
i scared that when we meet, i dun know i have the confidence to face my lover or not
coz i know i am a very shy person that can not face my first crush
how can i face my own lover for the first time in my life
:'(
