voice

whenever you heard the voice of the person u love
u will feel really really happy
whenever the voice softly reach your ears
you will feel that your the most happiness person that have life in the world
today i actually heard the voice of the special person
that is the most wonderful experience in the world
but when ever i make myself to say the three wonderful words to let the person know
i cant let myself to say that i dun know why
im just too shy to says that to the special person
i know one day i will tell this to this special person
the voice that you heard of the special person
it will imprinter in ur heart, brain and soul.

every morning

the days are much more nicer and happier
everyday i and that special person meet each other online
every morning before i go to school in the morning
i dun know y but i will automatically wake up about the same time to meet this special person
we chat most anything.
normally i dun know the time to go to school when chatting with the person ...

i know ...


i now currently know that i am the luckiest person in the world
i am also now the happiest person in the world
the person told me the most happiest thing in the world
the thing that i seen for so many times
this time i heard it from that person
the lovely 3words.
im so lucky
i love the person so much.

i think cant live without you

i finally can see the one i love
i really misses the person
i have not seen him for bout 6 days
my god i think i really long time ... but it is just 6 days

5th day

today is the fifth day that i have not even talk to the special person,
i miss this person so much
the person that i miss is the person i love the most ....

a story

today i heard a story from tv
that is from Samuel Chan from tvb
i heard this story from .... a program i for get
the story goes like this
a boy name Sam,
his mum as him a question,
when his mum ask him that question he was only in kindergarten,
his mum ask ...
' What is the most important part of your body?'
at that time Sam's felt that the environment is really interesting so
Sam says 'the ear' and mum says ' dear, that is not the most important part of your body?
some people in the world live really happily with out hearing my love. i will ask u this again.'
a few years later mum ask Sam the same question again
now he is at his middle school.
Sam pause for a moment to have a think and answered
he says 'the eyes' and mum says ' no my love that is not the most important. my love some of the people in the world can live really happily in the world with out sight.'
years when by Sam is now in collage
and unfortunately his dad pass away that year,
when he and his mum is in the funeral his mum then
suddenly ask the question that his mum always ask
' my dear, what is the most important part of your body?'
Sam thinks for a long time
and mum answered ' your shoulder is the most important?'
that is the story that i like
this story tells me that the most important thing is
that you can always lean on the shoulders from your love ones
when ever you are at a down state
not only the special person and also from family and frenx.
hope everyone understand the story and love it.

how can ...

i thought my special person says that the person want to talk to me ...
chat with me
i thought that my special person says that the person wants to chat with
me so much that he dun care how late it is
i really hope that tomorrow we could chat at the time that we normally start
i miss this person so much the last time i seen my special person is on the saturday
if we can not then i would like to me my special person on
saturday at the time that we have said.
i misses this person now...

61 days ...18/4

these are the days that i have been with my special someone
and the day i have meet this person is too long to count
i really felt that i am more and more deeply in love with the special person
deeper then before ...
i have not felt so strange before
i felt that i could not leave this special person
when i woke up in the morning the first thing that i am thinking of is my special person
and as for the last thing i think of is also my special person
thinking that when are we chatting ...
what time are we meeting ...
and so on and so on ...
i'm so happy to meet my first ...
and hopefully is my last ...
i love you

loving my special person ...

loving a person is very hard
loving the right person is more harder then you think
loving my special someone is the hardest because
i know that the special someone is the perfect person to love
but the hardest is not to tell the special someone that 'i love you'
is the problem that will comes up
that has been set up by the omnipotent one
the problems that has been set up to test us is so hard to solve
so many question /problems, big or small, all of then has so much to test us
the biggest test has been given is
will i meet my special someone ? how? when? where?
all of the questions i do not know
tomorrow is the special day for us
do you remember?

finally

finally i know whats missing in this relationship
listen to this song jj lin -however many 100 days
the thing that is missing is our touch, closeness, voice and something that close
i have not touch or seen my special person
have not even heard the person's voice
not been touch by the person, i know that is impossible for now
closeness possible if the person let me listen to the person's voice
voice is possible if we call each other.

im so stupid ...

i did not know what to do to the problem that will or will not happen but
the only thing that i know is that the person is always saying
the most common 3 words that shows that the person still in love with me.
but i din know that the person will actually say these things.
the person know that will hurt both of us
i did not know how to respond to the answer that the person has given
i thought of just to end the conversation
and just get over with it but i did not.
i felt so sorry to just end the conversation so selfishly
moreover i do not want to end the relationship with someone so special to me
i have not felt so free chatting with the person,
letting all my feelings out to the person.
one last thing that i want to let the person know is that
i want to live with the person forever in my life no matter what happen in our lives or
it is just fate that do not let us be together.
i will always be the one that will be waiting for you
will you wait for me no matter how long you have to wait?
im so scared now that you will say this thing ...
please, i begging the person not to leave my heart broken,
if the person do i dun know what i will do to the person
i will not forgive and forget the person
or maybe something that i would not imagine myself doing.

good and bad

if you love someone you have to love that person's
strength and weaknesses of the person
the most hardest thing to me to love is the person to have not a nice outer shell
but the inner shell of the person is really nice and beautiful
i felt that time could do the trick to accept all the strength and the weaknesses of the person
i felt that love is the hardest thing to be understood
cos of the complex but simple feeling between two person
i felt that there is only one true love in everyone's life
no one can replace the person that is in their hearts
nobody can understood the feeling of love really truly
unless your the person that name the special feeling 'LOVE'

wait wait wait

wait wait wait .... always wait
the only thing i can do is to ... wait
how long do i have to wait to get to see my true love
sometimes ... 3-4 years
sometimes ... 5-6 years
what is going on in my life is there anyone to tell me that
how much time do i still have to wait?
is there any other solution ?
for some questions that i can't answer is like ...
since both of the two lovers have two different lives
why do the lovers love each other?
what makes the two lovers loves each other when one is in asia
and one is in the other side of the world?
why must the God give the two person such a big test for them ?
why must it be a long distance relationship ? why?

wondering ...

im wondering that r u still reading my blog or are you still reading what i write
i know that i think alot at times but i just want to know that r u still willing to see what i write
im also wondering that some times i feel that i dont really know how u think of me
i know i am thinking alot since i love you so much
mayb the time can tell what will happen in the future
i am really hoping to know that do u still read what i write here or there?
could you tell me the answer
i just wanted to know so i can spread my own happiness to you
now that i know your reading my blog
will try to update my blog everyday
and load it up will all the happiness from us
to all the other people in the world

loving sumone

loving someone is so hard
when you dun know what he is doing and thinking when you all are not together
i really feel that the time can test everything
from what he like to what ever he does not
i trusting that someone is so important
if you and him is like 7 hours different i feel that the most difficult test are
1. to have safety with the someone
2. putting all tour heart to the someone
3. to be a understanding person, too understand when he/she is not with you
4. to have the same topic to chat about when you meet with the someone
5. to be as sweet as possible for as long as possible
6. to ask questions from both person and not one person
7. to try to knowing what each other is thinking of ( being in the same brain )
these are the 7 questions that could be teated for long distance relationship
that i feel that is really hard for me
i think i will give our (me and someone ) 4/7
for our relationship
i felt that i have trust and love in that someone but i felt that the someone i love
is missing something that i am so wanting for so long that i have not get yet.

Missing you

Missing sumone is so hard
missing a love one is the most hardest thing in the world
missing the person that you love so much
so the only thing that you can do is that you have to
keep the love with the person and the wonder of love
just follow the flow
so the thing that you have to do is that to meet each other as quick as possible
to have a good meet .

to loved by you !!

i would not think that your so angry when i make a joke on that,
i really can't sleep that night,
i did not mean to make you angry,
i feel so bad.

the moment i fell in love with you i already know that,
this is my first love that i will never ever let go
i will never never ever letting go of you,
no matter what you do to me,
no matter what you say to me,
i want to be with you forever.
i know this will make me so selfish and you dun like people that
is selfish .
just let me be selfish just for you.
i know this selfishness of me you will like because its you that
i be so selfish .

to beloved by you is the happiest thing that ever happen to me
no one can replace your place in my heart
you have already fill my heart with most of your love
that you have given me.