missing sumthing in my life ...

it seems to b that i have sumthing missing in my life because

today i have not online at the time i usually online with the one i love

i felt that one time i dun online with that person i will feel like missing sumthing

why do i even feel so alone ...

when i online with that person i felt that i am im heaven

quite a very nice experience

love to b with that person

i hope that i can c that person soon

when i bought a new notebook

love you so much more then anyone ...

songs

this few months

i have started to listen to the meaning of the songs

like when i am listening to kiss goodbye by lee hom

i know that the meaning of the song

or when i am listening to down (english ) by jj lin

or dong hua and yue ding by guang liang

or nothing gonna change my love for you from george benson

all of this songs can show how i feel right at that moment,

right at that time ,

space and action

if sumone know the meaning or they felt the same meaning on all these songs

i think they will feel the same thing in their heart

telling, is so hard

i dun want to tell this straight to き because

i felt that if i tell is straight き to then き will feel really worried

i dun want き to worry bout me and jus be with me whenever or wherever

but i felt that this is a problem that i would not tell き

i think that this is a very small problem that every couple would face

i dun know is me or not i felt that since we are together for a month

i still felt that i dun know who き is

i dun know how き feels and i dun really know wat き is trying to do

the most biggest fear is that will き cheat on me ?

will i ever know き true feeling and true self ?

there are so many questions that i want to know the answer

but the answer i felt jus can be shown from actions

i felt that i have not have き heart truly yet

i know that one day き will prove to me that the love that we have

collect from so many months, days, hours, minutes and second together

will be return as a reward to our love

i felt so painful through this whole piece of blog

but i dun want to let き know

im so painful

Second, Min, and Hours

today i know that the one i love will always see wat i write

this makes me feel so happy at the same time so for filled

every hour

every minutes

and

every second

i feel so for filled and feel so loving

i want my love one to knoe every thing about how i feel about

every second of my life and what happen in my life

i really want the one i love keep reading wat i rite

from this hour, minutes, and second on

i would love that the one i love to love me much more

then i love you

like what she say ... take and give

no matter wat i do not know the meaning

take wats urs and give wats no

i think that's the meaning

i love you

hurt

i dun really know that y i feel so hurt today

i really know that is not him who made me feel so hurt...

i know that i love him

i am really happy when i am with him

but i dun know y i felt so hurt today

i love him

i want to know y i felt so hurt ....