61 days ...18/4

these are the days that i have been with my special someone

and the day i have meet this person is too long to count

i really felt that i am more and more deeply in love with the special person

deeper then before ...

i have not felt so strange before

i felt that i could not leave this special person

when i woke up in the morning the first thing that i am thinking of is my special person

and as for the last thing i think of is also my special person

thinking that when are we chatting ...

what time are we meeting ...

and so on and so on ...

i'm so happy to meet my first ...

and hopefully is my last ...

i love you

loving my special person ...

loving a person is very hard

loving the right person is more harder then you think

loving my special someone is the hardest because

i know that the special someone is the perfect person to love

but the hardest is not to tell the special someone that 'i love you'

is the problem that will comes up

that has been set up by the omnipotent one

the problems that has been set up to test us is so hard to solve

so many question /problems, big or small, all of then has so much to test us

the biggest test has been given is

will i meet my special someone ? how? when? where?

all of the questions i do not know

tomorrow is the special day for us

do you remember?

finally

finally i know whats missing in this relationship

listen to this song jj lin -however many 100 days

the thing that is missing is our touch, closeness, voice and something that close

i have not touch or seen my special person

have not even heard the person's voice

not been touch by the person, i know that is impossible for now

closeness possible if the person let me listen to the person's voice

voice is possible if we call each other.

im so stupid ...

i did not know what to do to the problem that will or will not happen but

the only thing that i know is that the person is always saying

the most common 3 words that shows that the person still in love with me.

but i din know that the person will actually say these things.

the person know that will hurt both of us

i did not know how to respond to the answer that the person has given

i thought of just to end the conversation

and just get over with it but i did not.

i felt so sorry to just end the conversation so selfishly

moreover i do not want to end the relationship with someone so special to me

i have not felt so free chatting with the person,

letting all my feelings out to the person.

one last thing that i want to let the person know is that

i want to live with the person forever in my life no matter what happen in our lives or

it is just fate that do not let us be together.

i will always be the one that will be waiting for you

will you wait for me no matter how long you have to wait?

im so scared now that you will say this thing ...

please, i begging the person not to leave my heart broken,

if the person do i dun know what i will do to the person

i will not forgive and forget the person

or maybe something that i would not imagine myself doing.

good and bad

if you love someone you have to love that person's

strength and weaknesses of the person

the most hardest thing to me to love is the person to have not a nice outer shell

but the inner shell of the person is really nice and beautiful

i felt that time could do the trick to accept all the strength and the weaknesses of the person

i felt that love is the hardest thing to be understood

cos of the complex but simple feeling between two person

i felt that there is only one true love in everyone's life

no one can replace the person that is in their hearts

nobody can understood the feeling of love really truly

unless your the person that name the special feeling 'LOVE'