21 april 2011

i hav already broke up with the person that i seem to say that i love.
now he is the person that i hate the most.
he dun seem to understands me.
he bitch bout me when ppl are talking bout relationship and love.
i hate that he bitch bout me. :'(
i hav nthing to say to him no more.
i dun want to talk to this kind of people.
i know why i leave him.
i leave him bcos i dun want to put on pressure on myself.
so long that i hav to his time.
now we will say we dun belong to each other
i hate doing this things bcos i felt hurt at the same time.
i hate myself.
hate myself :(

♥3-yann♥lonelygirlz92♥

i want to let u know how i feel bout u

dear boon kim dear,
i know now i dun have the right to call u that. but i love you i still love u. but u said 'u loved me' when i saw that i felt hurt. bt compare my pain with ur pain im sure ur pain is more painful then mine. u love me so much and i can't believe i hurt u that much. i din regret letting u go bcos i truly love you. i know u will find someone that will love u as much as i had loved u. Once i truly thought that we will be togther forever. i remembered the time u gave me a second chance i really took it seriously. u think i din take the 'a-month-alone-time' well but i did. i took it and think of alot of things. the time i told you 'i want to break up with u' for the first time i know this will happen in the future. that y i said that. its nt that i dun love u any more. its that i dun want to hurt u again and again.
i remembered there are alot of happy times togther, like the time we go on SKYPE. the times on MSN. the time we talked bout everything and laugh bout most of the stuff. we talked bout life, we talked bout wat we gonna do in the future i always remembered. i remembered everything we talked bout. we talked bout those things that are secret to us. we had so much happy times together. i can remember all those things that made my life so meaningful. i remembered all the time that u like to put big and scientific words in to our conversations when u dunno wat to say. i remember one time u says that im ur wife. i am so happy.
i love how u make me laugh when i did silly things. i love when u smile to me and call me sweet heart. i love the times when u told me u love me very much. i love it when u write things on my fb wall.i love it when u write those massages on my private massages. i broke ur heart so many times yet u still give me a chance. i thank you so much. i think you gave me too many chance.  i dun want to break ur heart time and time again.
i made u lots of presents when we meet. i dunno wat i can do with it. i made a bottle full of hearts to show how much i love u. i think that does not have any more use. a key chain heart separate with ur name and my name. but i think both of them has no more use. i remembered the first time we broke up. u told me to keep it in a box or sum where. but i think this time u wont want any of that. i also remembered the times that u teach me wat ever that i dun understand.
i really did not regret letting u go but could u give me a chance to b one of ur frenx?
when i say i did nt regret letting u go. i kinda wish that ur mine always. but never mind im sure u can find someone that loves u more then me.
thats all i want to say to you really.
i love you very much ♥
♥3-yann♥lonelygirlz92♥